Facing Shen Yan, Mu Anxiao still did not want to mention Feng Qishi in the future. However, since he had asked, it would be unreasonable not to give him a proper explanation.
So, she glanced at the soul sword floating before their hands and said, "I am the owner of the soul sword."
"..." Shen Yan, listening to Mu Anxiao's perfunctory reply and looking at the soul sword again, said, "I ask you, why is my spiritual energy on this sword?"
"..." Mu Anxiao's eyes dodged slightly. "This is yours... it..." She didn't want to tell Shen Yan that he had reincarnated, nor did she want him to know... everything she had experienced with him in the future. Thus, at this moment, she was speechless.
Seeing Mu Anxiao's hesitant expression, Shen Yan reached out and gripped the soul sword once more. "Since you don't want to say, then forget it." With that, he closed his eyes.
Mu Anxiao watched Shen Yan's action and then the soul sword that began to glow blue. She asked, "What are you doing?"
"...." Shen Yan frowned slightly, then opened his eyes and said, "It seems the soul sword considers you its true master. However, it is a demonic artifact, so you must be careful."
Mu Anxiao: "Did you sense something?" She had a foreboding feeling.
Shen Yan: "Your thoughts can control it. It feels that the future me is not the real me, so it wants to eliminate him. This," he said expressionlessly, "is also your thought."
Eliminate?
Mu Anxiao had never thought of eliminating Feng Qishi. In her eyes, she simply felt that Feng Qishi was not Shen Yan!
Therefore, hearing Shen Yan say this, she felt a sense of crisis. "I didn't."
"You didn't," Shen Yan frowned. "Then why don't you accept the future me?"
"I.."
"Because I reincarnated."
Such light words. Mu Anxiao looked at Shen Yan's apparent indifference towards his future and was also puzzled. "Why don't you ask me why you reincarnated?"
"...." Shen Yan stared at Mu Anxiao's face and said coldly, "I don't think it's necessary."
"Don't you... want to know... why you died?" Mu Anxiao's heart began to feel uneasy.
Shen Yan: "I don't want to know."
"You.."
"Enough, stop blaming yourself. The future me is also me, my thoughts," Shen Yan interrupted, "will never change. I only hope you accept him."
"Accept.."
Mu Anxiao did not want to treat Feng Qishi as Shen Yan, because she still felt that Shen Yan was Shen Yan and Feng Qishi was Feng Qishi. But... even with this thought, she hoped Feng Qishi would live well; she didn't want him to die.
As for acceptance... she didn't know what exactly Shen Yan wanted her to accept.
Seeing Mu Anxiao's anxious expression, Shen Yan said, "You don't understand what I mean."
"...." Mu Anxiao didn't want to pretend to be smart with Shen Yan, so she nodded. "Yes, I don't understand."
Shen Yan: "I want you to accept that he is my reality."
"I know he is you, but..."
"You know he is me, but you don't truly believe he is me, because I died."
However, the moment Shen Yan uttered the word "death," Mu Anxiao's heart ached. Looking at Shen Yan's face now, she thought of the hug he gave her when he disappeared and left, and whispered, "I... cannot accept that he is you."
"Only if you accept the future me, will the future me... not die."
"What do you mean by that?" Mu Anxiao looked up at Shen Yan.
Shen Yan said, "Your non-acceptance... has implicated the soul sword. Because of you, the soul sword feels that the future me is not me, and even thinks he is an impostor, so it wants to kill him. If you continue to refuse to accept him, then you will not be able to have any further interaction with him."
"What?" Mu Anxiao seemed to understand Shen Yan's words and asked, "But... this situation didn't happen before."
"When did you start not accepting him?"
"I.." Mu Anxiao didn't know when she started not accepting Feng Qishi. In short, she just resisted. Whenever Feng Qishi spoke to her in Shen Yan's tone, and she saw him like that, she felt... uncomfortable.
Seeing Mu Anxiao's speechless expression, Shen Yan's eyes deepened. "Your visit here is a mission, isn't it?"
"Yes." Mu Anxiao nodded, feeling there was no need to hide this.
Shen Yan: "So, from the moment this mission began, you developed resistance towards the future me. And from then on, the soul sword also began to resist the future me."
"..." Mu Anxiao was stunned and looked up to meet Shen Yan's eyes. "How did you know?"
"I guessed." Shen Yan said, "I am not curious about future events, but I am curious about the future you."
"About me?"
"Yes," Shen Yan nodded, glancing sideways at the deeply sleeping Mu Anxiao, then turned back to Mu Anxiao. "I came precisely to guide you and me to cultivate immortality together. Of course, I also know that it will not be so smooth for us. Some things the future me will not tell you, but what I want to tell you is, I am him, and he is me." xxs
"The future you is nothing like you," Mu Anxiao said excitedly. Thinking of Feng Qishi's childish way of handling things in daily life, and then looking at the steady Shen Yan before her, she couldn't bring herself to connect Shen Yan with Feng Qishi.
Especially when she thought of Feng Qishi saying he liked her, it made her even more distressed.
"How is he different?" Shen Yan asked.
Mu Anxiao: "He always confesses to me, but you would never do these things. Although..." she said, "he has your memories, I just can't accept him."
"If you cannot accept him, then you cannot accept me."
"I didn't say I can't accept you, it's just... I always feel he is very childish, while you are different. Although..." Mu Anxiao recalled her interactions with Shen Yan, her eyes deepening, "although you are also quite annoying."
"You call me annoying, and say this to me when I'm being so nice to you," Shen Yan frowned. "You must be heartless."
"..."
The time of their meeting is still far off. Mu Anxiao knew some things could be said, and some couldn't. She didn't want to tell Shen Yan that he hadn't saved her. If she said it, some things would change. And she had promised them that she wouldn't change anything. Therefore, even facing the past Shen Yan, she had to keep her mouth shut.
"Heartless." Shen Yan coldly uttered the three words.
Mu Anxiao: "I am heartless. Some things, you will have to experience and understand slowly. Anyway, I won't tell you, because it's a celestial secret."
"A celestial secret," Shen Yan snorted lightly. "You are complaining about my future self to me, haven't you thought that this is a celestial secret?"
Hearing Shen Yan's words, Mu Anxiao couldn't help but feel they made sense.
So, she let out a dry laugh.