Chapter : 841
But then, that soaring admiration would be viciously, brutally undercut by the memory of her own research, by the cold, hard, and bloody facts she had unearthed in the dusty archives. She would see not the hero, but the man. The man whose quiet, steady presence had become the anchor of her world. And she would see him being consumed by a fire that was not just fire, but a corrupting, soul-devouring force. Her fear was not just that he would die, but that he would be unmade, his gentle, brilliant spirit dissolved into a scream of mindless, eternal agony. The fate of Sir Kaelen the Valorous was a ghost that walked beside her, whispering of a future that was too terrible to contemplate.
This was the war within her. The admiration for the selfless hero was a soaring, beautiful eagle. The terror for the life of the man she now realized she loved was a cold, coiling serpent. And in the battleground of her soul, they were tearing each other apart.
She finally reached the quiet, secluded wing of the palace where the senior attendants were quartered. Here, the noise of the festival was a distant, muted roar. The air was cool and smelled of polished stone and old, well-tended roses. The contrast between the chaos of the city and the serene, ordered world of the palace had never felt so stark, or so meaningless.
She entered her own chambers. They were small, but elegant, a testament to her favored position. A simple bed with clean, lavender-scented linens. A small desk with her books and scrolls arranged in neat, precise stacks. A single, arched window that looked out over a quiet, moonlit garden. It was a world of perfect, quiet order. And it felt completely, utterly alien to the chaotic, screaming mess that was her own heart.
She walked to the window and looked out. In the distance, she could just see the very top of the Royal Arena, a massive, dark curve of stone silhouetted against the star-dusted sky. It looked like the maw of some great, sleeping beast. Tomorrow, that beast would awaken. And the man she loved was going to willingly, nobly, and foolishly, walk directly into its throat.
The last of her strength seemed to desert her. She slid to the floor, her back against the cold stone of the wall, and wrapped her arms around her knees. The fierce warrior, the cunning spy, the capable partner—all of them were gone. All that was left was a woman, alone in the dark, facing the terrifying, soul-crushing reality of her own powerlessness. She could not reason with him. She could not physically stop him. She had no moves left on the board.
It was a new, and terrible, feeling. And as she sat there, in the silent, perfect order of her room, listening to the distant, mocking roar of the festival, she felt the cold, sinking certainty that her world was about to end.
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The night was a long and silent torment. Sumaiya did not sleep. She remained on the floor by her window, a silent, unmoving sentinel, her gaze fixed on the distant, dark silhouette of the arena. The moon arced across the sky, its cold, silver light tracing a slow, inexorable path across the floor of her room, a celestial clock ticking down the hours to a dawn she dreaded.
Her mind, no longer a raging battlefield, had become a quiet, desolate landscape of memory and regret. The frantic war between admiration and fear had ended in a ceasefire of pure, profound sorrow. All that was left was the quiet, aching truth: she loved him, and she was going to lose him.
To distract herself from the gnawing, helpless terror, she let her mind drift back, seeking refuge in the small, precious moments they had shared, replaying them in her mind as if they were the last, warm embers of a dying fire.
She remembered the first time she had seen him in the clinic, a quiet, sad-eyed man in a city of loud, desperate ones. She had come to him as a last resort, a final, desperate roll of the dice, expecting to find another charlatan, another seller of false hope. Instead, she had found a man whose quiet, gentle competence was a force of nature in its own right. She remembered the look in his eyes as he had examined the weaver’s son, a look of such pure, focused compassion that it had been the first, tiny crack in the armor of her own cynicism.
Chapter : 842
She remembered the Dahaka Jungle. She remembered the feel of his colossal, armored form slamming into her, shielding her from the Sabercat’s attack, the deafening shriek of claws on his spiritual armor a sound that would be forever etched in her memory. She remembered the searing, bleeding wounds on his back, wounds he had taken for her, and the quiet, dismissive way he had called them “mere scratches.” In that moment, he had ceased to be a mystery to be solved; he had become a truth to be protected.
And she remembered the small, quiet, and now unbearably precious moments in the clinic and at the orphanage. She remembered the way he would smile, a small, rare, and wonderfully genuine thing, when one of the orphans would tell a particularly bad joke. She remembered the comfortable, easy silence they would share at the end of a long day, the two of them working in perfect, unspoken sync, a team forged in the fires of a shared, noble purpose.
And she remembered the touch. The simple, accidental brushing of their hands. The memory of it was still a live coal in her soul, a point of warmth and pain so intense it made her breath catch in her throat.
These memories were all she had. They were a pathetic, meager collection of a few short weeks, and yet they felt more real, more substantial, than the entire rest of her life combined. Her life in the palace, a life of secrets and shadows, had been a thing of black and white. Zayn had shown her a world of color. And now, the light was about to be extinguished.
A new, desperate, and foolish impulse seized her. Her nature, her very soul, was one of action. She could not just sit here and wait for the inevitable. She had to do something.
She sprang to her feet, her mind a sudden, frantic whirlwind of desperate, impossible plans. I could go to the Sultan! The thought was a wild, hopeful spark. I could tell him everything! I could tell him of the miracle of the Qadir heir, of the thinking machine! I could show him Zayn’s genius, and beg him, on my knees, to call off the Challenge, to give Zayn the stones as a reward for his service to the kingdom!
But the spark died as quickly as it was born. The cold, hard reality of her world extinguished it. To do so would be to betray Zayn’s trust in the most profound way possible. It would expose him, his secrets, his impossible knowledge, to the very powers he was trying to avoid. He would not be rewarded; he would be dissected. He would become a prisoner of the Crown, his genius a tool to be used and discarded by men who would never understand him. She would not be saving him; she would be caging him.
Another, even wilder plan took its place. I could hire my own assassins! Not to harm him, but to… to abduct him! To take him from the city, to hold him in a safe place until the Challenge is over! I could protect him from himself!
The absurdity of the thought was almost comical. She, with her handful of underworld contacts, was going to hire a few common cutthroats to abduct a man who commanded a god of fire? A man who had faced down a Tier-4 magical beast and won? They would be incinerated before they got within ten feet of him. It was the plan of a desperate, love-sick fool.
She collapsed onto her bed, the last of her frantic, rebellious energy deserting her, leaving behind only a cold, hollow emptiness. There was no way. There was no clever plan, no political maneuver, no secret strategy that could save him. His path was his own, and his will was a thing of iron and diamonds, a force she could not hope to bend.
She had come to the end of herself. She, Sumaiya, the woman who had always relied on her own strength, her own cunning, her own will, had finally encountered a problem that she could not solve. She was, for the first time in her life, utterly, completely, and profoundly helpless.
And in that moment of absolute, ego-shattering surrender, she did the one thing that was left for the powerless to do.
She was not a woman of great faith. She had seen too much of the world’s cruelty, too much of the gods’ silence, to put her trust in prayers. But now, she had nothing else.