Today, a reader said in the book review section that they heard I was divorced and came to check on me. I casually deleted such a boring review, but later discovered that someone was spreading rumors elsewhere, and many people actually believed it. That's when I realized I had indeed become some kind of public figure.

First of all, the marriage is fine – I actually don't want to discuss this matter with anyone in an explanatory manner, because whether it's well-intentioned or malicious, I personally don't think any outsider is qualified to care about my private life. But if I don't mention this first, it seems that subsequent remarks cannot be developed accordingly, so here is the first and last time I will talk about this.

In the past few years, I have tried to talk frankly about my past and my understanding of life in my essays. But if readers really delve into it, they might find that what I have always shared are some understandings of life after these real experiences. I think these life experiences might be useful to some friends, so I share them. However, I will not share my life itself with people outside of my family and friends in the real world. There will be a clear boundary in between.

In the process of my writing being constantly interrupted, especially after my influence began to grow this year, some people would come to spread rumors for various reasons, wantonly spreading their own baseness. This is not something unimaginable; in fact, it is a kind of deeply recognizable inferiority that I have always known. I have no obligation or interest in their lives. In those places where rumors are spread, there are also some well-meaning book friends who say that they used to think that Angry Banana's life was very happy and fulfilling, but now that I'm divorced, their fantasies about love have been shattered. I actually want to say something to these book friends.

In this pitiful human society, there is currently a despicable phenomenon called idolatry. After some assembly line operations, it has almost become a monster that brings together all the inferiorities of the entire society. You see, people's own lives are poor, so they place their longing for life on other people. You expect others to be handsome, knowledgeable, sensible, expect them to sing, dance, act, and not get married. So some star-making companies bring out young people in their early twenties or even younger to entrust your imagination, while exchanging huge sums of money. This is essentially a destruction of people. Of course, people lightly place their imagination on others. When this imagination cannot be entrusted, people are keen to destroy others in order to gain a sense of superiority in their leisure time... And when this behavior begins to expand, people begin to place these imaginations on doctors, on lawyers, on writers, and in the future, even on scientists. People think this is a good thing, but please remember that no one can bear the entrustment of the majority. Like Luo Xiang, like Zhang Wenhong, when they face tens of thousands of people, no matter how gentle, courteous, thrifty, and yielding they are, while making tens of thousands of people feel comfortable, there will also be tens of thousands of people who want to destroy them to show their existence. But regardless of the positive or negative side, the lives of Luo Xiang and Zhang Wenhong are not lived for these bystanders.

My life is the same. I am a writer who makes a living by writing books. The only thing I can take out and am willing to exchange for money is my skill in writing books. Occasionally, I also communicate with everyone by sharing experiences and insights. However, I do not bear anyone's imagination of my life. I do not entrust anyone's love, or the entrustment of striving for life. Everyone, please do not entrust your life assumptions to anyone. Everyone must face their own lives and go all out. I only occasionally provide my own experience and summary for reference.

In the years before the country took various measures, such as in 2019, the national divorce rate once exceeded 40%. Two out of every five married couples would get divorced. Faced with such high data, people still talk about the divorce of every celebrity as if they are visiting a social miracle they have never seen before.

In my life, I have never seen a perfect person. Every friend has such and such flaws. A more common flaw is that many people are keen to evaluate other people's lives on the Internet according to the standards of saints, just like people used to talk about other people's secrets in the yard after dinner. It's just that today, we make celebrities and public figures into consumables that bear our malice.

In my life, there are naturally good things and bad things, but I find it increasingly difficult to talk about these things. I am an ordinary person with an ordinary marriage and life. If I want to show off, of course there are things I can show off. However, when more and more people care, various distortions will occur in the middle. Such distortions not only damage my life but also damage yours. And wanting to have a good life, good love, or other things, entrusting it to others is meaningless. The reason is that we always have to face it tremblingly and carefully deal with every bump in life. My marriage with my wife has entered its seventh year. We have had friction, quarrels, and sometimes we feel comfortable. But even the most loving couples in the world will want to get divorced hundreds of times. We may be able to walk tremblingly to the end, but that has nothing to do with you. You have to face your own life. And even if anyone can't go on one day, it's just some common social phenomenon.

If I were a so-called idol, I would create a false image of my life, tell you how perfect and high-quality I am, and at the same time, I would take your money through this scam. But this is a pitiful thing. Life experience tells me that there will be no such perfection. This perfect illusion itself can only be created by extreme distortion of a person. Fans gain pleasure by destroying a person, and idols gain wealth by destroying themselves. This may be an equivalent exchange, but I do not sell any private self for grand expectations or imaginations. Please everyone go all out to face your own lives.

This is the last time I will talk about this matter. In the future, I will still record my life, but that will inevitably be a sharing after having insights. I only guarantee the sincerity of this sharing. And if any friends are interested in my life or love, please respond with this article. And if one day I run to the article to purely sell misery... well, then please give me a little reward. At that time, I will probably be very miserable... :-d

Don't place your life on others. That is the embodiment of all cowardice, laziness, and baseness. It will give birth to a distorted monster.