She could easily forgive Wang Xue Rou, but she could not forgive Shen Xi Zhou.
The pain Shen Xi Zhou had inflicted on her was something she could never mend in a lifetime.
Back then, An Nuan had wished she could kill Shen Xi Zhou. She even pondered when she could return all the torment she had suffered, to make him experience everything she had gone through.
Those inhuman torments were all bestowed upon her by him. So, she should return those torments to Shen Xi Zhou, letting him bear them forever.
Back then, she had indeed said that no matter how Shen Xi Zhou treated her, she would not hate him and would always maintain her original intention towards him.
"Shen Xi Zhou, our relationship has long been over."
"Do you know? I never intended to marry Nangong Jin. But later, you kept making things difficult for me, constantly putting me in infinite danger. Then, Shen Xi Zhou appeared. He was by my side, always protecting me."
"Slowly, I was touched by Nangong Jin, and slowly, I accepted him."
"If it weren't for your constant suppression, I might never have agreed to Nangong Jin in my entire life. I would have lived alone forever."
"So, Shen Xi Zhou, all of this is your own doing. From that moment on, you completely lost any chance to stand up and say these words."
"If anyone is to be hated, then the person most deserving of hatred in this life should not be Xu Ruo Wei; it should be yourself."
"You are the one who created this situation. If you want to regret, then drown in your own regret."
Shen Xi Zhou recalled what he had done to An Nuan that day. It turned out to be that day. At this moment, he was already filled with regret. He truly never expected such a thing to happen to him.
That day was no different from any other for him, yet it turned out to be such a fatal blow to An Nuan.
It turned out that it was him; everything was his own doing.
"An Nuan... That day... I really didn't know such a tragic incident would happen that day."
"Indeed, it was Xu Ruo Wei who took over everything, but I never expected Xu Ruo Wei to do such a thing."
"I wasn't present then because I had something important to do and left."
Shen Xi Zhou stared intently at An Nuan, speaking with a solemn expression, "An Nuan, if I said that if I had been present then, I wouldn't have let such a thing happen, would you believe me?"
Meeting An Nuan's contemptuous gaze, Shen Xi Zhou seemed deeply disheartened.
At this moment, his eyes were filled with remorse.
And as he tried to approach An Nuan to explain, An Nuan lightly dodged him.
Xu Ruo Wei?
Shen Xi Zhou remembered this. He looked at An Nuan and said with utmost conviction, "An Nuan, you say that the relationship between us was actually ruined by Xu Ruo Wei. If it weren't for Xu Ruo Wei, we wouldn't have ended up like this."
"An Nuan, you wait. I will make Xu Ruo Wei pay a blood price. I will make you see it."
An Nuan was slightly taken aback, her brows furrowing. Listening to Shen Xi Zhou's somewhat deranged demeanor, a bad feeling stirred in her heart.
Even now, seeing Shen Xi Zhou made her feel that he was somewhat terrifying.
Shen Xi Zhou looked at An Nuan, his eyes full of anticipation, as if thinking how wonderful it would be if An Nuan would change her mind.
However, after doing so much, he still hadn't seen An Nuan's heart even slightly waver.
"An Nuan, I know that no matter what I say now, you won't believe me. You'll even think that everything I'm doing is just to ease my own conscience."
"But An Nuan, I will make you witness with your own eyes that I'm not just talking about it."
"I will handle everything. I will let you see my intentions. I believe my sincerity will eventually move you."
"And then, you will surely forgive me."
"That will be the time for us to start anew."
Shen Xi Zhou wore a smile on his face at this moment, as if what he was saying was truly about to happen.
"Shen Xi Zhou, I admit, I truly loved you deeply before. For you, I didn't even care about my own life."
"For you, I was willing to give up anything, even my so-called self-respect. I didn't even care what others thought of me."
An Nuan said these words calmly, as if these events hadn't happened to her, but she was merely a narrator.
What she said was indeed the truth.
Her love for Shen Xi Zhou was truly ingrained in her bones.
But later, she was reborn. Her love for Shen Xi Zhou, which had gone deep into her marrow, also vanished.
However, the path of loving Shen Xi Zhou was too difficult. And for Shen Xi Zhou, she had even sacrificed her own life. She thought, this was enough.
Listening to An Nuan's words, Shen Xi Zhou's face was full of smiles. He even felt that he still had a chance.
His face beamed with a smile, and he cautiously tried to please An Nuan, saying, "An Nuan, I know you still have me in your heart. It's just because you have Nangong Jin by your side, and Nangong Jin has also sacrificed a lot for you. Those cruel words, you can't bring yourself to say them."
"An Nuan, you don't need to worry about these things. I will take care of them for you."
"You just need to stay by my side with peace of mind."
Saying this, Shen Xi Zhou stepped forward, his hand about to touch An Nuan. But at this moment, An Nuan directly retracted her hand.
Shen Xi Zhou was stunned and stared blankly at An Nuan, unable to comprehend.
An Nuan looked at Shen Xi Zhou warily. In fact, she now found his proximity extremely disgusting; she was disgusted to the extreme.
Shen Xi Zhou, however, was immersed in An Nuan's previous words, completely oblivious to her eyes filled with disgust and disdain.
He thought of how gentle and kind An Nuan was back then.
Back then, An Nuan would brave the heavy snow to bring him soup, still determined to deliver it to him.
Back then, An Nuan would meticulously prepare things he wanted to eat.
Remembering that time, he was the happiest person in the world.
Back then, when he was in a bad mood or encountered trouble, she would always find ways to cheer him up.
Shen Xi Zhou recalled An Nuan's appearance back then and felt a sense of nostalgia at this moment.
He secretly vowed in his heart that if An Nuan forgave him this time, he would treat her well.