Half a Brick
Chapter 126 Lovesickness is a Calamity
I said, "I took care of it, handled it perfectly. I completed Lingdang's request without getting myself into trouble. I very rationally grasped the proper measure."
"Oh, did you get the information you wanted?"
"I got it." I was still listless. Investigating the source of the fox talisman didn't make me happy at all.
"So, don't you think you should do something now? Miss Ba has urged you more than forty times, asking when you're going to Daqing Mountain. She wants to go with you to see what kind of temple it is."
I said, "I know, but I'm not in the mood right now. I don't want to go to Daqing Mountain yet. Tell Miss Ba to wait."
Ding Kan was understanding and told me directly, "Okay, no problem. I can help you persuade Miss Ba not to worry, but you have to give me a time frame.
Is it one or two days, or three or five days? When are you planning to leave? I can let Miss Ba prepare in advance."
I glanced at Ding Kan and only told him three words: "Don't know."
Then, I turned around and went out, took the "Open" sign down, closed the shop door, and went back to my room.
Ding Kan was persistent and followed me, but I slammed the door in his face.
"Wan Qian, what's wrong with you? Playing lovesick during the day?" Ding Kan didn't intend to leave and banged on the door, telling me to open it.
I said, "I want to be alone."
Then, I ignored Ding Kan's nagging outside and continued to cast my hexagrams. Although every hexagram showed that Yan Ji was safe and sound, being safe and sound one minute didn't mean she would be safe and sound the next. I was worried about her every minute.
I didn't want to get involved in other people's sect infighting. I didn't want to give up my free life. I didn't want to get myself into trouble. Once I crossed that line, my future life might completely deviate from the path I had originally set, but I was really worried.
I was the one who handed her over to Lingdang. How would Lingdang treat her? Would she testify against Shi Tu? What would her final outcome be?
Would she hate me? Would she be disappointed in me? If she died because of this, would it be considered that I killed her with my own hands?
Headache, headache, headache.
My head was about to split open.
I, Wan Qian, have always been open-minded. How could I have a day when I was blinded by lust?
I locked myself in my room for most of the day. Later, when I was too hungry, I went out to find something to eat.
It just so happened that Jasmine had finished cooking, and the only two living people in the shop were about to eat, so I sat down.
Ding Kan smiled and said, "What, does a lovesick patient know how to be hungry? I thought you didn't need to eat?"
I ignored him and took a bowl to get rice. Jasmine raised her hand and held my bowl down.
"What's wrong?" I looked up at Jasmine in confusion.
"Shopkeeper Wan, you've fallen for a woman, haven't you?" Jasmine said with a cold face, tears in the corners of her eyes, endless grievances.
"I don't know." I was telling the truth. I really didn't know if I had really fallen in love with Yan Ji. Although her shadow was constantly lingering in front of me, did that mean I was moved? Did that mean I liked her?
Yan Ji was skilled in charm techniques. It was more likely that I was fascinated by her beauty, right?
Of course, besides her being too charming, I also felt that I had hurt her and was full of guilt towards her.
"Don't know? What does 'don't know' mean? You're afraid to admit it, aren't you?" Jasmine's tears were swirling in her eyes, as if they could fall at any moment.
I could understand Jasmine's anger. We had been living under the same roof for so long. How could I not know that she had feelings for me? But I really didn't have any thoughts about her. My shop was just a temporary stop for her. Once there was a suitable opportunity, she should go back to find her own life.
Jasmine wasn't a stupid woman. She actually understood what I meant, but she was deliberately playing dumb. As long as I didn't explicitly chase her away, she would continue to look for opportunities in the ambiguous zone.
As long as I didn't fall in love with someone else, she would always feel that she had a chance.
Now that she had discovered that I had really fallen for someone else, the grievances in her heart could no longer be suppressed, and the hand holding the bowl was trembling.
Seeing that the situation was about to get out of control, Ding Kan quickly stood up, took the bowl from both of our hands, first comforted Jasmine a few words to calm her down, and then put on an expert pose, asking me to tell him what had happened? What kind of woman had I encountered, and he, an experienced emotional expert, would help me analyze what to do next.
I didn't think Ding Kan was an emotional expert, and I didn't think his story with the Rakshasa Girl had anything worth learning from. I was even more disgusted by his behavior of scattering dog food everywhere.
However, I really didn't know who to talk to about these things that were stuck in my heart, so I could only nag Ding Kan.
So, I told him everything, why I went to Ten Thousand Corpse Valley, how I met Yan Ji, how I took Yan Ji away, how I handed her over to Lingdang, everything I could say and couldn't say.
Ding Kan nodded as he listened, quite absorbed, and I forgot that there was still Jasmine next to me.
As a result, as soon as I finished speaking, before Ding Kan could express his opinion, Jasmine slammed her chopsticks on the table and ran back to her room crying.
I was about to chase after her, but Ding Kan grabbed me and said, "No, no, a man's emotional story, of course, a man has to help you analyze it. With her here, there are many things I can't say. Don't worry, she won't get into trouble."
With that, Ding Kan sent Meiying and the Rakshasa Girl to follow her to Jasmine's room.
I'm really not good at coaxing girls. Let them take on this difficult task.
After hearing the sound of the door closing upstairs, Ding Kan sighed, patted me, and said, "Do you know why she could barely control her emotions just now, but after you finished telling the story, she suddenly completely collapsed?"
"Why?" I really didn't understand, so I humbly asked Ding Kan for advice.
"Because her self-esteem was hurt."
"Her self-esteem was hurt? Why? Did I say anything hurtful to her just now?" I had been talking about my experience after going to the Corpse Controlling Sect, and I didn't mention her at all, let alone say anything bad about her.
Ding Kan sighed again and said, "Do you know why she likes you so much, but she has never dared to take it a step further, dare to openly confess to you?"
"Well, women generally don't take the initiative to confess to men, do they?"
"Not so, not so, my Rakshasa Girl took the initiative to confess to me. Jasmine has never dared to say it because she's inferior."